Yes, I know, it would be better if I went to the trouble of actually giving her the right clothes rather than just shooping it so half-assedly, but the point is the face, really.
( You know you want to see what new travesty I've made in photoshop )I'm sorry I haven't posted in forever, but I feel somewhat in limbo lately. Without a job or school I don't have a lot of things really "anchoring" me, and my interests seem to change from day to day too. I'm trying to look for something to really feel excited about, but it's not working so well. I got into Kuroshitsuji briefly, but it's short enough to read it all in a few days, and the fandom has disappointed me so I don't really feel like I have much to do there. I started rereading a lot of my favourite books, but since I packed up about half of my collection the first time I almost moved out, that didn't take too long either.
The only RPs anyone's running irl are all a little boring, because it doesn't matter whether a GM is good when your fellow players don't have any backstory or voices to their characters and thus couldn't care less about yours. I have to wonder how any of them enjoy it, because it just must feel like an mmo to them or something. I tend to recycle characters from dead online oc games as a result, because it's not worth spending days coming up with someone interesting to waste on no one caring. But the only thing they all want to do is upstage each other, and sadly only a few of my characters are really written as the sort of flamboyant attention whores that can keep up with that - and I genuinely don't feel like being mean enough to always play Ashlea, Samail, or Anya just for the sake of a pissing contest. When your fellow players come up to you and say "I'm
so sorry for walking all over you there, you know I didn't mean to right?" after a session where you though you got a lot done and your character got to speak their mind and reveal a little about themselves to the other characters, you know something is wrong. They'll try to argue about who would be the main character if it was a novel, and I just end up rolling my eyes because the GM and I have the most incredible plot planned that involves my character and I have to wonder if they'll even notice when it happens, as it's supposed to be something of a major event in the story. I'm known for my lack of subtlety in online RPs - that I can be subtle enough to be ignored completely in tabletops is a little annoying. I was terrified I had already given away what was to happen, then people admitted they hadn't even noticed the private scene that had gone on with my character. It's still kind of a shock to realize that people are genuinely not paying attention to what the other characters are doing, or even caring! Even when it could potentially seriously affect theirs!
As far as online RPs, I'm
ridiculously psyched about
fromrapture. Hell, I'm just psyched at the idea of getting to play with people who notice that I'm playing. I should probably get to working on apps, but I'm still trying to make up my mind who to take.
And speaking of communities, would people please go nominate at
vgbest? The anime one got like ten times as many nominations. I'm not asking for people to nominate me, I mean other people actually. I feel kind of weird having nominated so many people as it is, but there are categories with no one there. Maybe it's arrogant but I just think it'd be more fun to see my name up there against way more people. It makes victories more epic, and losses more understandable. >> And it just seems like right now it has to represent such a small cross-section of iconists.
Also, dyed my hair red. I posted the photos at twitter already, but here they are again.
1 &
2 They're with a borrowed camera, since I haven't bought a replacement charger yet for mine. That's why they're all fuzzy - if the camera is less than a pound I just don't know what to do with it. Mine is nearly 2lbs with the lens on, and I've gotten so used to that weight that I just can't hold a little point and click steady anymore. =/